Cats,
I know exactly what you mean about being told to not feel a certain way! My mother said that to me all the time when I was a kid... she still says it to this day, and I have actually told her a few times now that I do not care to have her telling me how to feel anymore. I am 24, for Pete's sake!
Yeah, as much as I would like to have a darker side sometimes, an ability to cover things up, hiding my feelings is something I am not very good at. Anyone who knows me can read me like a book... I guess that can be a good thing or a bad thing, depending on the situation.