I agree with everything that has been said, but I know where you are. Im married to the love of my life. I struggle every single day with his anger. I havent gotten enough strength to let him go for good. I struggle with the fact that I will be in financial ruins because he will leave me and our kids high and dry. The only thing he can think about is what he is going through...to hell with everyone else.
I do find that screaming every profanity I know into my pillow seems to help reduce the rage that I feel toward him and what he has done.
He is probably lucky I dont keep the bat in the house anymore...because there have been times that I have thought about how good it would feel to beat him over the head with it.
I know...Im not a nice person. lol. I really truly cannot wait for the day that I know what the right thing to do is.