Once again you all have pulled me out of the depths of despair. I ended up having a wonderful evening....imagine that. To be really honest, it just scared me....it being my own relapse. I did read over half of Beyond CoDependency (again) last night and i did laugh when i realized what i was doing (after hitting myself with that frying pan it all became so clear)! Ha! It is actually funny today, but to all of you who have not yet experienced codie relapse after making serious progress....let me help you in advance.......expect it to happen, eventually, and NO YOU ARE NOT GOING CRAZY!! Just regroup.....walk away from the situation, call upon your HP and PLEASE come here for some serious SR therapy, because knowing you are not alone is HUGE!!! I love you guys! Thank you! Thank you! Thank YOu!