I agree with Ogly. You are not a basket case. Remember, the goal of recovery should be practice, not perfection, mainly because none of us will every be perfectly recovered. That's like me, as a food addict, going on a low-carb diet and saying I will never, ever, ever eat pizza again. I can laugh about it because I know what a silly thought that is, but do you see the comparison? I know that I am going to relapse at some point, but I have to have faith that when I do that I will be able to pull myself out of it before it becomes a full fledged downward spiral. And I think you have done a great job of stopping it before it became that downward spiral. You have admitted that you relapsed. You have stopped it dead in its tracks by being honest about it. So, what to do now? Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back on the wagon.
*hugs and prayers*