Originally Posted by
Astro 
I'm not sure I'd want anyone to put up with my alcoholic nonsense for 18 years, to hell and back as you shared.
I am sure.
With who I have "become" after finding a solid recovery and if I knew then what I know now... I would have walked away and never married to save my wife from going through all that I put her through.
But as the saying goes... till I knew better...
Once making it into recovery and being able to see who she is and what she put up with sure makes me all the more grateful and so blessed that she is a loving and forgiving wife.
As far as becoming who I was before the drinking...
I was never that person.
What I hope is that I have become or am becoming the person she thought me to be when we first married.