I'm numb at this point
...because TODAY I found a condom.
Folks, we've used a condom once in +14 years, and that was +10 years ago after I went off the pill in order to get pregnant with our son. By the way, with his "issues" described above, it was only on for a hot second anyhow - COULDN'T use one. Bet he can now that he's hittin' that Viagra!
I did ask my husband about the condom, and it really doesn't matter what he said - God help him...HE is the only one that can, and I know it more than ever now.
You know, I thank God for the fact that I was on my way to the counselor when I found the condom, and for just bathing me in His peace...I am remarkably...calm...maybe not "numb."
FYI, I have an appointment with my doctor on Tuesday - the earliest they could fit me in, even after I "put it all out there." I'm okay with that.
Please continue to lift us all - my kids and I, in particular - up in prayer.
Oh, the counselor informed me that his drug test of 2 weeks ago was negative - and that she doesn't trust it. He had an unreal amount of water and Gatorade all evening and prior to our appointment with her. His urine sample was a very strange and intense color of yellow (even after urinating twice before the test)...considering the amount of liquid he'd had, she felt he'd done something to affect the test.
Whatever...
Blessings to you - and reaching out for hugs. Thanks so much, all of you.