i am also afraid of what he will do to me if i do leave. Before he said he would try to get full custody....i dont think that could happen, but he is so vindictive who knows what he will put me through.
you are right as far as me being in my comfort zone and being too afraid to leave it. and i have to be honest with you all and say that money is a big factor here. If i had the money and were able to take care of myself and the kids without worry, i would have done something.
i guess that i thought he had had enough when he was living apart from us..when i had the Ro, when he thought he had lost his family. but the addiction is too strong. i know that it is not what he wants, and he is in denial about how bad it is. he still thinks he can control it..if he thought he couldnt, i think he would get help..but he is in that denial stage and cannot get out....