i really feel for u chess. i get upset much sooner than after 6 months so i can only imagine what u r feeling. that sense of loss, of grief, of shattering disappointment.
i know for me i have to be gentle but also turn to my higher power for a lot of love and especially friends. i have a a lot of love to give but i also have a lot of emotional baggage and getting to my nearest meeting also brings me alot of comfort. one step at a time, we can get through. i hope u feel better soon. peace aand kindness.