Cocaine and Viagra
I am CONSTANTLY amazed (and often sickened) by my own naivete!
Getting things out of the van (my AH drives) during football practive, my 10 year old son played with the Sharper Image air cleaner that plugs into the cigarette lighter - rarely used, it sits in one of those holding compartments. He popped open the cover to the filter and then came to see me. He nervously whispered, "Mom, Dad has 4 blue pills in the Sharper Image thing." We went to see. I didn't know what to do, so I said, "OK sweetie, let's leave Dad's things alone and put them back where you found them." "But Mom, why would they be in THERE? There PILLS!," he said. I said, "I don't know, Honey - but I'm not sure if it's really any of our business (and I'm not) so let's put them back."
When we got home I looked the pills up on the internet - Viagra?! And then I did a search - and whatdoya know, it goes hand in hand with cocaine (my AH ...who STILL swears he's clean and sober even after our session with the counselor last week... DOC). I read that folks drop dead from that combination all the time - and he has high BP.
So what does this mean? Cheating on me, too?
What else have I learned this week? Grinding teeth, the shakes, profuse sweating, constant runny nose, sleep aids everywhere, high BP and I can't even think of what else are signs of...TA DA...cocaine use.
My counselor says I've been making great strides in terms of my own recovery...at times like this, I wonder. But then, I am reaching out...bless each of you for your support.