Thanks for posting.
You said "I THINK I'm ready to do whatever it takes.."
Why not tell yourself, "I KNOW I'm ready to do whatever it takes.."
or, maybe you won't be.
Never mind the past sponsor stuff right now. Go to lots and lots of meetings and maybe another teacher will appear. Share at meetings. Post here.
The miracle will happen, as long as you put in the required work. If I can recover, you can recover. We are no different.
You CAN do this!
Rowan