oh, it is hard. will your insurance cover any one on one counseling? it sure helps me..
it might not hurt to talk to your doc about your current meds? maybe it's time for a switch or higher dose for awhile? i know my doc doubled mine when things got so chaotic with my daughter (i've taken anti depressants as well for about 3 years - started them when my dad was terminally ill....)
i'm thinking about you, krhea. you really have come so far in your recovery.
blessings, k