ShawMac - It has been nice getting to know you and I wish you all the best with your recovery. Hang in there -- you can make it!
I'm going to take some time away from this board. I was looking for a safe place to talk about my experience in AA, naming what the experience has been and seeing if anyone else identified with it -- there is value in knowing I'm not alone. And then talking about the solution. When I first saw the number of threads in this forum discussing bad experiences with AA, I thought this might be a safe place to honestly discuss these issues with other recovering people. Unfortunately, I've gotten the message that isn't welcomed here -- so I'm going to take a break from this Board.
I wish you and all the others who've been kind enough to communicate with me everything good that life can bring.
CJ