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Old 08-01-2007, 06:58 PM
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Peter
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I am very "codependent" around people I love. Anything they want to do is fine with me.

I guess it comes from growing up believing that my wants or needs were not important enough to impose on anyone.

Just the other day I was in the ER with gastrointeritis, worried and alone.I did not feel to call anyone because it was late . I remembered thinking of the many times I have had to sit up in the ER with my friends and how it would have been nice to have someone there with me for a change. ( Of course I was severly reprimanded by my friends when they found out)

Even long after I started recovery, I never knew how I felt. If someone were to ask "How are you feeling?" I honestly could not answer because I needed someone to compare my feelings to.

Nowadays I am not so bad

12 Step recovery and counselling has helped me a great deal.
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