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Hello,

I'm sitting here at my office and feel like I'm paralyzed. My boyfriend of 6 months just broke up with me. All he said was that he's not ready....that's all he needed to say. Now I feel like someone just kicked the wind out me. I feel like crying but must work.

I feel so alone. Don't want to run to the few friends I got and burden them with this. I don't know what to do. I been living at his place for months but still have my old apartment. Haven't been there for a while. I feel like just stopping the time.

Our vacation starts next week and we had plans. What do I do know? Just go home? He was the only person I saw everyday. All my friends have families and I only see them couple of times a month. I don't feel like I'm ready to face the emptiness.

Not sure this is the right place to post this but this is all I got.

I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes. Not sure how to do this. Just go and get my stuff after work and that's it? This talking breakup over with the person sounds alien to me. What is there to say? Obviously I deserve a lot more from a relationship and he's saying that he can't give me that. Why don't I want to talk to him? Why does going over difficult situations is alien to me?

I feel like I just lost the point in everything.

This probably sounds confusing to you all. I feel confused.

Just this morning I was talking to God and saying that I'm handing this relationship over to him and this happened. I know He works in mysterious ways but does the delivery need to be this fast?

I...I'm out of words at the moment...