I know where you are coming from by not being willing to do the work. I was there once, my situation only got worse and worse. It's a progressive disease and it WILL get worse if you continue to use, eventually.
You have to just stop and take a good hard look at yourself and your life and decide where you want it to go. You have to be honest with yourself.
I believe that to begin recovery, you have to completely open yourself to sobrioty and what it means, and what it takes to get there. Also, you have to do it for yourself, no one else. It's a decision that only you can make, but we are all here to support you.