Seeker, When I start thinking about the past, I make myself stop. I can't change the past, Megan can't change the past and when I look at the past, I know I did the best I could with what I knew. I know that Megan was just doing what addicts do. In my heart I have forgiven her, but I won't forget the lessons learned. I just no longer need to rehash it in my mind to remember. Hugs, Marle