I'm happy to hear you are okay for today. I too am okay today. I was feeling low + sad at the end of lasst week, espec. Saturday. Luckily, we had friends staying for the weekend to distract me. My main symptom of agitation is insomnia because my mind wants to think about the situation and the past. It IS A ROLLER COASTER. We hope for more days without thinking about our kids than days that we do. I don't know when the wave of sadness will hit. My low days are less frequent now because of the time it has been since I have been close to my son grows greater. But just like you Marle, today I am able to stay focused in my own life and carry-on, Ea. day I do the best I can. But once in awhile I have to give in to the sorrow. That is my only connection so in some strange way I feel better afterwards.
Maybe feeling good is contagious.