(((Susan))))
I've had the range of emotions with my son...loved him so much it hurt...hated him...hated myself for hating him.
I found I had to allow myself to get good and angry, and not deny it, in order to work through it.
With a LOT of help from here, I learned to accept where he was in life, which in turn helped me to forgive him and myself.
I should have been going to meetings, where I would have had more guidance and assistance, but I never got around to it.
I regret that.
You feel whatever you need to at the moment, and talk to whomever you need to.
We're walking with you
(((Hugs)))
Cece