Susan, I want to tell you that it will get better because it will. I want to tell you that you will come to a place of compassion and love instead of anger and hate because you will. But right now, I know you have to feel those feelings so that you can get through them and to the other side. So I will just send you lots of mom hugs and prayers right now. Prayers for your whole family. Esp for your granddaughter. Hugs, Marle