I cant do AA anymore EITHER
I cant believe I found this!!I just experienced a massive relapse and am in the aftermath and recovery from it(it only lasted a few devastating days). Ive been involved with AA for abt. 10 yrs. It has secretely driven me crazy! No one has ever understood me. I think the 12 steps are fine and I believe in God but the CULTURE of AA is abhorrent to me and Ive finally faced up to my feelings abt this and dont intend to return after this relapse.To me AA is a RELIGION that my spirit just cant tolerate anymore.I have been a chronic relapser "going out" 2-3 tmes a year for a week -10 days and then sober up. Im doing that again now. NO one I talk to can seem to understand my my attitude towards AA. I think the "spirit" of the 12 steps has been corrupted by the people whove "religionized" AA kind of like the way institutionlized christianity has corrupted the spiritual teachings of Jesus.Does anyone understand what Im trying to say?