Originally Posted by TexasGirl

Bear with me.

I titled another thread "I officially learned a lesson." I said I wouldn't listen to stbXAH when he needed an ear in between bouts again. When he called tonight, he begged me to listen...said he needed a friend. I felt sorry for him, which is pure stupidity, but I did.

He started telling me how when he was telling me that he wasn't drunk after I moved out, that it was all true because he was really on cocaine, and it kept him from being drunk. He told me he's a cokehead, how last weekend he drove around the downtown area in the city where I live for some more, and that some guy beat him up. It just went from bad to completely nuts in a matter of minutes. How on earth did I end up having conversations with people about fights, and cocaine, and jail? Those aren't the conversations I used to have before I knew him.

Then, he asked me about our divorce decree. He said he'd thought about some money I might owe him. One of the things was my car. He paid a down payment on my car back in July 2006 while we were still together. It was 6 days before I had a lease starting on my own place, so I begged him not to buy the car (I didn't end up moving out for another month because of the car). He wanted it so that he could have my old one to stick his breathalyzer in. I cried, but he was drunk and insisted that we buy the car. The whole time signing papers, he was rambling drunk while I cried. Now he wants money for the down payment? We were MARRIED then, he wanted me to have it for his OWN personal reasons, and I CRIED and BEGGED him not to do it. I was afraid of having another payment to make when I knew I was about to move.

The other thing was for a credit card debt he paid for me three years ago. Once again, he was blabbering drunk to some call center lady for over an hour, trying to negotiate the balance down. I was crying then too, asking him to stay out of my business. He wouldn't listen to me. I didn't want him to pay it.

He's so out of it that it is insane. I have my final divorce decree, and it's in the mail to him. I would personally drive it down there tonight if I didn't think that he might say later that he signed under duress or while drunk. I just have to make it to the end. Then the house is set to close August 15th, and then, THEN, no more. I want him out of my life forever. The craziness is too much. I kept trying to give him the benefit of the doubt, in fact for years. I lost it tonight. I want him gone from my life. I was too afraid to "be mean" and tell him I wouldn't talk to him again, but now I don't care. He's not looking out for my best interests, so why should I care whether I am mean to him or not? I was trying to be nice to his mom and make sure she got reimbursed for some mortgage payments. Now I don't care. She hired a private detective on me last fall and now she's saying that if I would have put my foot down sooner, maybe he could have had more of a chance. What??? How dare she. She's not looking out for my interests, why should I look out for hers. I don't care about him or her anymore....this divorce is all about getting the best thing for me. I don't care about fair....the legal system will determine fair.

I'm sorry....I am completely going off right now, but I am, I don't know what. I think I'm finally mad. I think that anger is finally here. I've been playing Miss Nice TG this whole time, and I'm done. How dare he? I hate him.