Thanks so much KG, your definately an inspiration! I actually had a descent day myself, got a little teary eyed tonight with friends but it comes and goes. Actually laughed today. Like you said about hearing from him near your bday, i feel like i'll get a text or something as my X owes the loan on Sunday and ALWAYS contacts me for the account number. Part of me wants to ignore it and he can ask the bank and another part wants to tell him to ef'n write it down once and for all.....but yet again CONTACT that will set me back and i don't want it. Thanks for the update, glad to hear your doing well!