No yelling here either. But . . . in my experience, sometimes I just wanted to tak to my addict to get a "reaction" from her. I wanted her to know she "needed me in her life". It was more a need that I had (now I see it as a sick need) than anything else. I was being selfish. I am not saying that is what you are doing, it is just easy for me to see (now) my behavior was more of a reaction of my insecuritites.
You have to do what you feel is right, but ask yourself why you really want this contact now.
I know it is not easy.
Terri