I am going to chew gum now and drink about 5 gallons of water and try to undo what I've done, I'm so disgusted. I mean really, I have to weigh in tomorrow for God's sake. I would LOVE to hurt someone, ha lol. And I'd like to go into that a little if you don't mind. I am NOT a violent person #1, first & foremost. I've never been in a fight . . .with a woman. I've never hit a woman, I've tried to fight back at a man and it made it so much worse on me so I quit doing that and all of this was many years ago, but . . .I have put up with quite the assortment of crap along the way, I have taken and taken and taken and the last deal with the all the bold face lying and cheating, well. . .I feel sorry for the person I unload on if I ever do and I really and truly wouldn't want to physically hurt someone unless it was xah, but. . .sometimes it's a treat to fantasize about it. Am I psycho? Wait I don't know if I really want the answer to that.