I loved an addict too. He died from his use. When he died He owed me a couple thousand dollars and I found that he was taking my debit and getting money every nite for about 3 weeks before his death. He also took my home depot card and bought gift certificates[to sell for drugs i'm sure]. Its true, addicts love their drugs, period. If he was acting loving to you, he was probably high and not needing any drugs yet. The pain does go away and after awhile, you will realize that none of this was acceptable. We do understand...Marian