Smoke is right you dont "need" him.
Ive been reading about all the stuff you do. Do you realize youre already doing everything by yourself. You dont need him to tell you how to do it.
Sounds like he just surprized his parents. And what does he mean his parents are too old for this ****. If theres any **** going on, hes the one doing it and he should know enough to stop it.
The more I read your posts the more you sound like a hostage who has identified with her kidnaper. You are entitled to your own opinions and wants and needs. You dont have to consult him on everything.
Sorry to be harsh but I can hear you waffling. Are you sure you miss him, or do you just miss him contolling you. Its scary being in charge when you havent done it for a while.