Feeling helpless is horrible. I feel like such a failure. I am exhauted from the emotional roller coaster. One minute I am sobbing, the next I am so angry.
This is no way to live. I believe life is meant to be joyous.... for each of us. If you want to feel better, you might give Alanon or Naranon a try. I felt like you do, once. Alanon saved my life.
(((hugs)))
I wish you the best.