heather, how long has it been since you started to help yourself? the reason I ask is if it hasn't been that long maybe your not giving yourself time to allow change to take place. I know I want my life to be peaceful right now but reality says give it some time.
life happens while we're making plans (john lennon) while your "fixing yourself" life doesn't wait til your done. (me)
while I read some of your post it seems to me you are on the right track, you just want it to happen quickly and well that just isn't the way it goes I guess, I sure wish it did I'd be one happy camper.
keep up the good work girl you'll get there I promise