(((Hugs)))
I follow your story each time you post...
from mom to mom I know your pain...
your son has a long road ahead of him....he has made choices that have brought him to this spot and only he can make the choices that will bring him through it...
my son's current recovery started the night I left him at a shelter and told him he could not come home....(I have heard him speak at meetings and his "talk" includes acknowledging that it was not what he wanted but it sure was what he needed...)
I will keep you and your son in my prayers