Don't know how to have fun without drinking
So many things go well with beer it seems. I keep feeling this sadness and loss... I wish I didn't feel it. I'm still all bruised up from 2 days ago when I drank last, but my short-term memory is really bad!
As soon as I start to feel the slightest bit better, I feel myself wanting to drink. I hate this. I want to be sober but I don't know how to have fun in life or enjoy life without it.
I know this is crazy... 1/2 the time when I drink, it turns out to be a disaster, not fun.
Does anyone else feel this way? Has anyone gotten over the link in your mind that drinking and fun go hand in hand and there's no way to enjoy certain situations without a drink?
I've been drinking since I was a teen. So I really don't know how to do certain things without a beer.