I'm sorry, but you don't need television to put it bluntly. Cut the cable, and watch DVDs.
If the cell is in his name, don't pay it. Let him deal with it. Get a different cell phone for you or don't have one.
If you don't have a lawn mower, you might get one for cheap at a lawnmower repair place or a place like the Salvation Army. I used to be petrified of mowing my own lawn, but now I now that was just me trying to build excuses for not taking care of myself. It wasn't about the lawn, it was about me being lazy.
Also in my state you are not eligible for spousal support unless you've been married a significant amount of time.
Whomever said you need to be proactive is right. The time for wringing hands is over. There's no choice now. I know how you feel because I was in this position less than two months ago. Do what you have to do and feel bad about it later, because right now there is no time for indulging in that.