No child should ever have to go thru what u r going thru.
NO CHILD....
Its hard to believe that this disease of alcohilsm is still
kicking butt even after all these yrs.....
See i was born in 58 and went thru the exact same thing
as u r...maybe worse because i was the oldest girl out of
4 siblings....i use to wish i were born a boy just so i wouldnt
have to go thru what ur going thru.....but as i can see....boy
or girl it doesnt matter....alcoholism affects EVERYONE it
comes in contact with.
See for me...i stayed in my physical, verbal, emotional abuse till
i couldnt take it anymore or when i was old enough to leave....
which was 18.
See u r already thinking of a safe haven to run to to protect
urself and yet for me, fear was instilled in me at such and
early age that i was to scared to tell anyone or escape.
See i was taught to keep quiet about what went on behind
the walls of my home....and if i did try to then i knew the
consequences....and for that i surely didnt want to rock the
boat or cause more trouble....so i lived with the pain trying to
suck it up and stay strong.....yet i was soooo vunerable....so
scared...so full of fear....until i toughened up and built an iron
wall around myself to protect myself from anyone ever hurting
me again when i finally left....
Then i had huge resentments towards my mom and others
that i thought loved me....
Then eventually i began to numb all the pain ...all the fears...
everything with alcohol....
No i didnt want to become like my mom and prayed i never
would....but...i did become an alcoholic but with help and
faith, and gidance from Above i didnt hurt my own kids....
Both r now 22 and 20 doing exceptionally well in life and school.
I wish i had the right answer for you sweety....i wish you would
never be hurt again.....i wish u nothing but strength and hope
that you will do the next best thing to protect urself....
Remember that alcohol is a DISEASE and it can strike at
any given moment...hurting and destroying anything and
anyone in its path.....its not the persons fault for what they
do....
Once u r filled with the knowledge of this disease ...educate
urself about what it is and what it does...then u r better
prepared to deal with others as well as urself.
Remember this is not ur fault....
My family stepped in and did an intervention on me sending
me to rehab for 28 days.....they did for me what i couldnt
do for myself.....
Today I am truely grateful for that....
My name is Sharon and I am an Alcoholic.
By the Grace of my Higher Power whom I
chose to call God and people here in SR.
I havent had a drink of alcohol since 8-11-90.
Feel free to message me any time little one....
Im here if u need me.
