I am 100% committed to not taking him back(dad)
I am also committed to this child ( whos 11) and I am safe and was stable before all this came into our life.........
I just have reservations because the child when first told that dad relapsed asked me........do I have to go back? and I said do you want to and he said no..........and then I said ok...............then I'll do my best but I cant promise.............
part of me feels I should just keep him.............a big part really
then another part thinks...........if I sent him back it may take some time but maybe he could move on and ............have his life back the way it was........except thats not really possible since before he didnt know or love dad now he does..............moms in prison......drugs too!!
I just hate this I wish there was an easy answer but theres just not is there?