You are doing whatever has to be done to take care of you and your kids. What has he done? Drank some coffee? Is he going to meetings? Is he in rehab or any kind of program? You DID something to show him how serious you are about him getting clean. He has done NOTHING! You don't know that he's clean and even if he is that could just be to get home. Be strong, be strong! You've come this far, don't let down you're guard until YOU are sure he is commited to getting help. My AH did start that outpatient program and he is so.... positive but I am still walking on eggshells and worrying everyday when the other shoe will drop. Remember you have the upper hand. He is the addict ... he brought this all on himself! GL tomorrow. You'll be in my thoughts.