So, what do we all do? I have this strong want to change this behavior. I suppose a behavior modification therapist would start with something small like an ice cream cone as "Best" sugested, or even the big thing like a motorcycle. I bought a pool table years ago with this in mind and feel guilty every day I don't play on it. I didn't really deserve it. I even bought a kayak and used it a few times. I bought these things because I so much wanted to have and fulfill a want, that I created them. I believe that if I had a healthy relationship with want, then I would have chosen much more fulfilling things. I have been set back by my attempt to want and have and now need so much to develop and nurture my wants in a healthy way. I can't even buy a pair of shoes right now.