((Heather))
Perhaps if you could get a sponsor from NarAnon and or some phone numbers? Just a five minute call might help you feel better on bad days. I too am a person who does not like reaching out, but I know that it is in my best interest.
You ARE doing great, what you are feeling is totally normal, and I am glad your bf went to rehab if nothing else so that you can have this time.
Hugs!