I really think it's that I've gone into soooo many situations thinking that I knew what to expect, knew what I was doing, thought I had it all under control. Only to find out that there was sooo much more involved, and found myself with terrible outcomes. I'm just afraid this is going to be one of those things. But, my hope is that I'm a little bit smarter, a little bit wiser, and if things don't work out, I'll get out as soon as possible. That's what I keep trying to tell myself.... if it's really too much, I don't have to stay in the situation. I can sell the house and go back to renting. But, it takes alot of convincing to get me to committ to anything these days!!!!