IN addict love
JUST DRAWING EVERY WOMEN IN LOVE WITH AN ADDICT A PICTURE.. I FEELL YOUR SORROW AND I LIVE YOUR PAIN GOD BLESS.
TELLING MYSELF EACH TIME "THIS IS THE LAST TIME I AM TAKING HIM BACK, IF HE SMOKES ONE MORE TIME ITS OVER......
LOSSING SLEEP WONDERING WHAT HE IS REPLACING HIS 2AM HABIT WITH NOW THAT HE HAS STOPPED SMOKING
STARTING TO WORRY WHEN HE CALLS ME, IN A BAD MOOD I PRAY AND HOPE HE DOESNT USE THOSE STUPID DRUGS TO NUMB HIMSELF.....
WONDERING HOW LONG WILL IT BE THIS TIME BEFORE HE BREAKS MY HEART AND LIES AGAIN
WHEN HE IS WITH HIS "BUDDIES" THE SAME BUDDIES HE "USE TO" SMOKE WITH,, HOW IS IT POSSIBLE TO HANG OUT WITH THEM HONEY WHEN YOUR TRYING TO STAY CLEAN?
OF COURSE HE IS NOT GIVING THEM UP FOR ME... HE HAS KNOWN THEM ALL HIS LIFE...
THE HARDEST PART OF ALL ARE THE ENDLESS BROKEN PROMISES, TELLING ME THINGS ONLY IN THE MOMENT AND LATER ON CHANGING HIS MIND.....
AT THE end of the day i want to have hope like he wont be as silly to do that again he loves Me too much
it happens.... he has fallen but he doesnt tell me right away... because i already told him he will lose me....
sooo he holds on to me we share a fairy tale lie,, my bf clean and sober.. buying me gifts, even opening the car door for....
when my guard is DOWN THE TRUTH SNEAKKS in... i find out.... i am hurt sad and angry i break up with him FOR GOOD THIS TIME
only a few wks and then HERE I AM AGAIN.. I CANT HELP BUT ASK MYSELF WHO IS THE ADDICT HERE