((HK))
The very best thing you can do is stop for a second and breath. The next best thing you can do, is the hardest. Let it go and give it over to your HP. Let him carry that load. Have faith and trust that there is a reason, a purpose and a plan. All the worry in the world will not change any of it. If you can do that, hand it over to HP, you will feel a peace, a calm even a reassurance. A warmth in your heart and soul that it's going to be all right. After all HP is so much better equiped to handle the stress.
You are damaging your own health with the stress and worry. You are taking years off of your own life right now. Put yourself first. If it makes you feel better, call the sherriffs department and ask them to check on him. If he doesn't ever speak to you again, well maybe it will be his wake up call and the best gift you've ever received. I know you love him. Do you love him enough to let go and let his HP take over?
Sending Hugs and Prayers
B