mavis is right, you'll never feel the contentment until you learn how to live for your well being. I'm sure it's a hard road, ( my addict is my son so it's alittle different for me)
I had to release my emotions of worry, fear ect ect ect... and I'm still working on it of course, but I'm so much better after the first time I realized ,"I matter too" and started working on me from then on.
good luck to you