i believe i may never be emotionally ready to file. I also believe that by talking to others like here on SR and my therapists , others who care and may see things for what they really are, because my vision is cloudy right now. and also due to my low self esteem, i may not be able to see how bad things are and think maybe in some way i am to blame....so even though no one can tell me what to do or when to do it, they can present to me what exactly it is i am dealing with her and then based on those facts make a decision. for instance, i didnt know that DV and drugs were seperate issues, here i am blaming the drugs for his behavior when it is him with or without them....he is responsible for his actions.......