I've called my exabf every name in the book...........and a few are probably illegal in some countries. Looking back at it, I was angry........very angry and in a lot of pain. I never thought to realize the pain he was in at the time. When I began to learn more about addiction I realized I wasn't the only only one angry and hurt. It took some time, but I've been able to forgive myself and him for all those ugly word exchanges we passed on to eachother. I learned not to hate the addict. I now hate the disease.