i still have feelings for him, sure
but he is abusing me..i got a "circle of abuse" from the domestic violence people and he is abusing me in ways i didnt realize was abuse..i guess most of it if not all is due to the drugs...
as for looking at the future..im confused...i would hope that he could get help and make progress, etc, but will i always have to be afraid that anyday it could start all over again???
do i still love him.....?????? how do you know after everything that you've been through with this person, through the lies and deceit, the abuse, the drug induced behavior...how do you know what love is anymore??? I guess i still love the person he used to be.....but all that is changed right now....