Welcome JS. Glad you found SR, sorry for your situation. Be sure to read the sticky posts at the top of the forum. My favorite that helped me so much and was a real eye opener was "What Addicts Do." Learn all you can about addiction. Keep reading and posting here... you'll find so much encouragement and support from others who are going through or have gone through what you are.
And remember the 3 C's of addiction... you didn't Cause it, you can't
Control it, and you can't Cure it.