During the darkest times, I recited the Serenity Prayer 50 times a day. I made it my goal to be happy, healthy and whole. I recited THAT to myself over and over and OVER again every day. I wrote it on a sticky note and had it on my bathroom mirror and on the rearview mirror of my car.
I was so broken, I hit MY bottom. That's when I was able to start working a program of recovery for ME. It wasn't about him anymore ... it was about me.
BIG HUGS
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