thanks cats, its day 2 or 3, and i am still in shock somewhat, this stuff is soooooooo painful yall. my stomach won't stop burning and the tears flow sometimes without warning. i'm just so tired, i thought i was doing ok, never could have imagined how serious this now seems to be. i'm making plans though, as they come to me. sooner or later i should have something concrete ready to go. i can't eat and i just feel sick to my stomach, i'm trying not to think about this right now, but seems like i have to think about it, reality needs to just soak in, i guess.