I've been split up from my addict since mid-Feb. Sometime in march I called him and he was a jerk and i felt horrible...
I guess I was sad cause he didn't call on my B-day.
Then I took his number out of my phone to make sure that didn't happen again.
About 5 weeks ago I realized that I wasn't thinking about him much anymore. That is when he started calling like crazy and ringing my doorbell. This went on for a couple weeks and then i finally got weak and answered the phone...3-4 times in the following couple weeks...each time I felt awful afterwords. I don't even know how to process or explain the feelings..
I have no temptation to answer the door, though. He is very good at seducing me and if i let that happen, I'm taking a GIANT step back...
I feel lots better when i don't answer the phone.