I think that we have more feeling than the addict. We still feel the pain of a codie slip and try to do better next time. Usually I try to be easy with myself. I hate it when the 3 A.M. wide awake self - why did I do that and I know better comes along. I know that we all have some self doubt but we always try to be easy on ourselves. I really think that we do want to do what is best but boy it really hurts sometimes. Especially when I realize that what ever I do, is not appreciated and only sets us up for more slips. I hope it gets better.