Emotional Hangover:)
Do any of you feel like sh*t the day after you have a Codie slip? I think it is a little akin to the feeling an addict must have when they relapse. I play the scene over in my mind. I ask myself why the heck did I do it and I feel like I have taken 100 giant steps backward. I know I will be okay in a few days, but I feel all the progress that I have made just went down the tubes because I spent a few minutes venting to my AD. And it was not even in person or over the phone. It was by text message. I am sure she would have hung up if I had called. I really do need to learn to keep my mouth shut and even if I don't hear from her for years, I need to let that go too. It is just so hard sometimes for me to keep hope alive when I don't even know if she is. Marle