First of all, welcome to SR. and secondly, YOU ARE NOT ALONE! There are many of us who have been plunged into the fire of our child's addiction and we have come out of it; a bit singed but all in one piece.
It's never easy. I have an addict daughter, 26, who has a 2 yr old herself. Things will probably never be the same but I have learned, through my own recovery, to "accept" that I did not cause this, I cannot control this and I cannot fix this. I cannot live my AD's life and while I hate what this has done, I cannot change it onto anything than what it is and what she wants it to be - that is her choice. MY choice is to not allow her behavior and her addiction to be MINE! I have a life; and I am entitled to it. And so are you.
This is a great site and I am glad that you have found it. Stick around and you will learn a lot on your own road to recovery - to recover YOU!
